Notes from Underground:Consciousness

Notes from Underground is a book by Fyodor Dostoevsky, and it is about an "underground man" who we do not know much about. What we do know about him is his emotions and how he feels about himself and the world around him. The underground man describes himself as “overly conscious,” and because of this it makes him a more developed then other men. But he believes that because he is so overly conscious it holds him back from living his daily life. He thinks that if he went through life with more of a narrow mind then he could go about living his life day by day.The underground man also blames his consciousness on the fact that he can never make a direct move in his life. He say that normal men act immediately and do not think about what they are doing before they do it.
  The underground man says describes his overly consciousness as a "sickness" but also admits that he takes pride in having it. The underground man takes pleasure in his own pain. Even though he despises himself for who he is, he still thinks he is better and more worthy then people around him. Because of this him blames himself for everything around him and this only leads to him being more miserable of a person.